So, my little sister had her lie-detector test today.

It turns out that she was telling the truth the whole time (a pretty rare thing for her, actually), and she WAS raped a month ago.

And now I feel like a complete and total bitch who deserves to be shot.

>< Go ahead and say it, I was a bitch about this whole thing. Why I didn't believe her in the first place when I probably should have... *head/desk* Would anyone like to take the first shot at me?

I'll just come out and say it: I feel awful. I feel like I should have believed her, but didn't for some reason. I don't know. I just think I should be shot and hated currently. Why did I have to be so arrogant and disbelieving about this?

I want to kick the guy's ass now, though. I want to beat him so severely that he'll never be able to have kids. And I feel bad for that, too, because I know that I can't do it, and I know that I should be there to protect my little sister. Cause she's my little sister, and the thing goes is that if you hurt the younger, you've got the older coming after you. I want to put a smile on his face. Make him regret his actions.

I want to cry. Why did I have to be such a bitch?

Anyway... I don't know what they're going to do now. But... I sincerely apologize if any of you felt I was leading you on with this; I wasn't intending to, I just told you what I knew at the time. >< T^T

I'm going to ask for hugs, even though I probably don't deserve them. And, please, everyone... could you lend some support to my youngling? (That's what I call her sometimes XD) Even if it's just through messages here on DA, I'll relay them to her, just... please. I'm asking for your support through this... mostly for her, but for both of us. Cause I want to beat someone's ass. XD

I'm so sorry for everything... and I'm sorry I was such a bitch. If anyone would like to shoot me (not literally, please don't, I don't want to die XD), please feel free to do so. ><



~~Aelwyn